Week 3- Ideal boyy

My ideal boyfriend would be tall with blonde or brown hair, short, like a buzz cut. He would have cute eyes like blue or hazel or gray. He wouldnt be fat but he wouldnt look like he doesnt eat. Muscles are always nice too. He would wear cute clothes... nothing cowboy, goth, or too preppy. Just like the fox and hurley t-shirt and baggy jeans... but not like to his ankles baggy. He would ride dirtbikes and four wheelers and go swiming with me in dirty creeks :D He would work but nothin major where he cant spend time with me. Oh i forgot to say that he should be really tan and smell amazing 24/7. prolly wear that cologne from pac sun or adidas or curve.. just something nice. I dont want him to be like 100% white either. i mean i want him to be like puerto rican too or maybe just some hot ethnicity. He hates all the same foods as i do cuz then i wouldnt have to watch him eat gross stuff like peas and tacos. He should prolly love watching mtv seeing how thats all i do. And he has to like kids and be really cute with babies. Uhhh a name. Well i kinda like forgein names. not like ones i cant pronouce or anything. hmm i kinda like the name Kayden. That would be cute. that would be a start of an ideal boy.

Week 2- my life as a movie

If my life became a movie it would include me, my baby, morgan, allie, and my mom. ((just as a few of the main ppl)) Kay well i could be played by Jamie Spears seeing how we both are kinda havin a baby at 16. My two best friends could be played by Camren Diez as Allie and Hilary duff as Morgan. Im not too sure who could play my mom... maybe Camryn Manheim from Ghost Whisperer. Ok but the plot of the movie would just be the struggles of growing up as a teen mom and how my best friends are prolly gonna get on my nerves cuz they are always going to want to hold my baby and feed her and just try and do everything for me. My mom would prolly be doing the same.. so the movie is about the struggling thing and how everyone starts to get on my nerves.

Week 1A. Change in my past

There isnt alot in my life that i really regret or would want to change becuase if you think about it, if you did something completely different than what you had, your whole life could be different. it could change alot more than just that one simple outcome. But i think if i could i would just change the fact that i was too scared to see my grandpa as sick as he was so i spent very little time with him towards the end of his life. Its not that i didnt want to see him or i couldnt make time for him, it was that i didnt want to see him sick and scared. If you just looked into his eyes you could see the worry and uncomfort. I didnt want to see that and remember him that way. I wanted to remeber his smile and his laugh and all the jokes he would tell me over and over. But it seems like now i just wish i wouldve spent all the time i couldve with him. Spent every second by his side because now i cant see him at all. I had my chance and i blew it. I dont want to change the fact that he died.. because then he would be living miserable and in pain, but like i said, i wish i could change the last bit of his life so that i was there more.