Week 1A. Change in my past

There isnt alot in my life that i really regret or would want to change becuase if you think about it, if you did something completely different than what you had, your whole life could be different. it could change alot more than just that one simple outcome. But i think if i could i would just change the fact that i was too scared to see my grandpa as sick as he was so i spent very little time with him towards the end of his life. Its not that i didnt want to see him or i couldnt make time for him, it was that i didnt want to see him sick and scared. If you just looked into his eyes you could see the worry and uncomfort. I didnt want to see that and remember him that way. I wanted to remeber his smile and his laugh and all the jokes he would tell me over and over. But it seems like now i just wish i wouldve spent all the time i couldve with him. Spent every second by his side because now i cant see him at all. I had my chance and i blew it. I dont want to change the fact that he died.. because then he would be living miserable and in pain, but like i said, i wish i could change the last bit of his life so that i was there more.